3 posts tagged “life”

It is now the late-early morning for me.  I've been thinking about things.  Nothing bad nor good, just simply things in general.  I'm a thinking person after all.  There isn't "much" to my thinking: life, work, love, future, past, present, finances, politics, technology, friends, challenges, opportunities, success, failure, freedom, and so on.  I'll deal with it as usual.

My sister pretty much has me beat in a hardcore match of Scrabulous on Facebook.  Scores are Jeanette: 297,and Mysef: 283.  She got lucky as hell with a 91 point word, "astonied," which really did not make any sense to me, but hey, it just goes to show you that it is never over 'till it's really over.  My winning streak comes to an end, which is probably a good thing because I have been far too cocky with that game.  My excuse for friends is that I am just a confident and competative person.

I miss Sierra a lot more than usual.  I almost feel alone for some reason, even though I'm far from it.  It is just a mental thing I am sure.  I'm probably 95% happy and optomistic.  When I get to that 5% of depression though, it can be just a minor thing where I avoid talking to people for awhile and feel jealous of other people for reasons which I can't explain.  It could sometimes be more serious where I just flat out refuse to speak to anyone, and things start to annoy me that wouldn't otherwise.  I rarely ever get angry; I can't remember the last time I was so, but I can suddenly feel really alone with no warning.  I'm not even sure if I am at this point of feeling lonely, but things like this come to mind and I evaluate myself as a person.

I think about how fortunate I am, and I never try to act depressed because there are so many other people that have much worse to worry about.  I just take life day by day.  I do not try to plan things for the future because they rarely ever work out in my life.  That does not mean I don't think about the future, I don't bother to plan as much around it.  I do this because it allows me to be more flexible (figuratively speaking.)

Today, I have a pretty wicked headache.  Which is rare for me.  I used to have a lot of headaches when I was younger, but I can't remember the last time I've had one.  I just took two Advil to hopefully help it to go away.

I posted a news article on Tech In Demand, and will post up a feature article later.  Still can't think of a logo design.  I had some things, but they were all pretty simple, and can't think of a way to make it awesome.  I guess I'll have to wait for that.

That's all for the moment!

No, I'm not referring to being recognized in person; Although if I did hang around Newport News or VA Beach, someone might recognize me sooner or later.  I am speaking of online.  How, when I visit websites I used to visit, I am recognized.  The most recent example of this was only moments ago when a person on Newsvine left me a comment saying my name looked familiar, and then saying how he realized that I was writing for Mashable and he was reading my post on travel resources.

It's somewhat weird in a way.  I had been approached by the owner of Wakoopa, and he told me that if I ever wanted to know any information about Wakoopa, to let them know.  I had a member of the Particls team personally message me asking how my experience was with the software.  I had a person today on Stickam, while I was listening to Leo Laporte, notice me and praising my articles.  I have people commenting on my articles directly, telling me how much they like the articles.  Some people even seem to know how much effort goes in to the research I put in just for writing a single article.  It just really changes me in a way.  It's the same thing when I know even one person has watched a YouTube video of mine, or read a blog post of mine, or even just thank me for helping them with something.

It's just kinda weird in a way, but I don't mind it.  It's also quite amazing in other ways.  I like the fact that even though I have posted less than 10 articles on Mashable.com, that I'm already starting to feel the attention.  I want to make a difference, and I have always dreamed about doing something where people would remember me for.  I never imagined it would have been writing, even though since I was about 14 years old, I had wanted to be an IT journalist.

I could see myself doing this for a living.  I could see myself doing this on a daily basis.  I could see this being my life as a writer.  I don't mind it at all, and I'd be willing to work my best at it, because I know that if even one person reads my article, and they get something out of it, that I have made some kind of impact on that person.  I want to write about things that people care about.  Even though it's only technology, it still is important to many people.

What does this mean for me?  I don't know just yet.  It's all happened all of the sudden.  I never, ever, would have imagined being a writer for Mashable.  I sent in a few links to stuff I have previously written, and for a whole month there was no reply, until one day when I was given my shot, and my first article, ironically enough, was my best according to Digg.com, which had over 750 Diggs the last time I checked.  It was, and is a real personal achievement for me, as I'm not going to college to study English, and I was only a mediocre English student.  My best subjects were Math and History.  I just really never imagined I'd be doing this.

The only thing I really was certain of, was that I'd be working for myself.  I know that writing for Mashable, doesn't really mean I'm working for myself.  Yet, it is fairly close.  As I write more articles, and earn the respect of my fellow writers, I am confident that I'd be given more freedom to do as a choose, and it is a great responsibility, and one wrong thing could totally destroy it.  The recognition or writing for Mashable though, is an honor, and I think it is something that has given me the confidence in my writing, and the dream I had only but a month ago, my whole life, is slowly turning into a reality.

No matter what you do in life, make sure that the job you are doing, makes you happy in life.  Work hard, do well, and push yourself.  There is no reason why you, the very person reading this article, can't do something you have always dreamed of doing.  It takes patience and determination.  The best things in life come to you.  The person who I now love has found me, my best friends found me, my dream job has found me.  Some of these things took a long time, but I never lost hope, and I kept trying, even when it almost seemed pointless.  So never give up on anything you want to accomplish.  Just make sure that what you are doing makes you happy, because no amount of money can make up for doing the things you love most and enjoy.

I'm not sure if I'll be writing for Mashable for years to come, for a few months, for a few weeks, or for even only a few more days.  I do know that I'll do my best no matter what.  I know that just experiencing all this, is life changing, and is really making me re-think everything.  It reminds me of when I went on a 7 day cruise.  It was a life changing experience, because I've never done anything like that, and it's something that not most people are going to ever see.  It's something that I had to experience.  Now that I have experienced writing as a job, I don't want it to end any time soon.  I hope it lasts forever.

These were my thoughts and stuff.  I know I kinda went over what I initially wanted to write, but I just got into a groove and had to get it all out.  If you want to see what I have done on Mashable thus far, check this link: http://www.mashable.com/author/james-mowery/

As always, I appreciate comments, criticisms, and all feedback of any type.  I guess this was part personal, part dramatic, and part inspirational, but it was all me, and that is all that matters.  I'm sorry if I repeated some things, or if it is unorganized in any way.  I am about to pass out from tiredness, but I wouldn't have been able to sleep if I didn't get this out of my system.  So it is done, and I hope everyone has a wonderful life, and maybe if you have read this post, it will inspire you to try harder, and never give up on your dreams, no matter how big or unachievable they might seem.